Babe, pick a night to come out and play
skool has started! eek.
initially i was quite.. fearful about it cause.. haha i also dont really know why! myriad reasons i suppose. fear of bad grades, no friends, being alone etc etc.
haha so far, skipped a few lessons HAHA. okay cause really, it was all kinda a waste of time! all the intros, and useless information. i guess its useless cause its interesting, but because singapore is so paper-driven, it doesnt help us in getting an A, so its useless.
practical has been such a headache but since i cannot be loose with my words online, i shall restrain from saying anything!
anyway my dota skills have been improving. DAVIDDECEMBER IS DOMINATING HAHAHAHA i seriously will never get tired repeating that! but yeah, my friends' ears are arld hurting hearing it only twice >: ( nice encouragement from them?! HAHA.
i have a free day tml! cause french lectures have not started. so im gonna go stationary shopping and print notes and organise more of my stuff. and try to finish reading eragon! haha. by they way, im so proud about having packed my table and all ^^
on a sad ending note, merly is disfigured :( while painting nails at hannah's house, i accidentally flicked the brush and now there is a trail of lilac nail polish across the keyboard :( sob sob.
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STEF typed this at 5:24 PM
saw this one day when i was heading to caregroup @ settler's cafe SMU.
i thought it was very nice. and unexpected. haha!
my parents are back! :D
wanted t wait for them before leaving for retreat but couldnt manage to :(
ah wells. seeing them now! haha and my mom is telling me stories about east timor. its.. complicated. haha the culture there is ultra different.
HKL retreat! hahaha.
it was enjoyable and i learnt alot, even though it was such a short period of time. i'll be taking the pri 5 caregroup next year, meaning that im moving up with my current cg ^^
i want t plan for my caregroup and build deeper r/s with my kids. i think that they can really BE so much more. i see alot of potential in them! yes, i wanna believe in my kids :D
i think God is telling me to think about what i really want t do with my life. i only have one life, and i can do so much with it. its time to really build my life on God and live a fufilling life! i've been WAAAAY to caught up with grades(but of course good grades are good lah! hahaha). there's so much more that i want t invest my life in and do. i want t invest my time/effort/resources in things that will last forever, even if they may not be tangible and not everyone understands.
but i believe that God is real, even though i fail to live it out in my life oh-so-many-times. and if God is real, then enough said! shouldnt the life you live be completely different?
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anyway i finally bought a new swimming costume ^^
yippee! really feel like jumping into a pool now! heh.
and im excited for cycling! actually, im excited for any sports activity that will make me loose weight!!!! HAHAHAHA. borrowed ws' crumpler for the cycling thing ^^ don't worry, i'll take good card of it haha (:
oh and im actually damn tired. cause there was some ahbengs behind our chalet PARTYING AND SHOUTING AND BLASTING MUSIC AND SHOUTING AND THEN SHOUTING AND THEN SHOUTING VULGARITIES FROM 1AM TO 5AM.
NICE. i couldnt really sleep! and omg. damn scary cause huiwei slept through it all then i was like, huh how can she take it. so at 5ish when she happened t turn in bed, i was like, eh huiwei, you can sleep? wasnt there a lot of shouting?
then she was like, huh? nothing what. i slept quite well. you're dreaming lah.
omg. i was like, FREAKED?!?!?
haha but the next morning i asked soo feng if there was shouting and she was like, yeah, alot.
WHEW. i was so relieved please!!!!!!!! hahahaha.
okay, BUHBYE im going t sleep. i cant really process what im typing arld. hurhur. bye!
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STEF typed this at 1:44 PM
oh no i've succumbed to accumulated lack of sleep :(
my nose is seriously killing me now and my eyes feel really.. puffy?
sian. i wish i were more productive in studying as well.
french test 2 coming up next week. zzz hope i do well. seriously!
and congrats to me! i've stopped my online shopping addiction! ^^
havent bought anything for two weeks now. but i bought smth earlier though! but yknow, at least its not out of the.. NEED to buy. omg. previously i was always feeling the need t buy smth and i'd scour the pages just to find smth remotely nice for me to buy.
its okay now! im quite sure. haha but i'd better not let crystal know about today's purchase... whoops.
okay, nothing much to say except that yeah, sian!
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STEF typed this at 1:34 PM
yay interspecies friendship day every thurday!
HAHAHA shit even though its kinda like.. digging my own grave?! ah ha. whutever. im just kinda glad that i have friends to eat lunch with and have meetups that i look forward too! okay my sentence was kinda weird but well, im tired too tired to keh gao.
so anyway, i was feeling damn sian today actually. french tutorial was fun though! yay im so glad that i have vi :D even though its like, at 8am. anyway im really thankful that i finally have a friend in french class! hooray, then i dont have t worry about embarassing head nodding aka falling asleep experiences cause i'll have someone to make sure i dont nod off. haha!
as i was saying, i think im still struggling with certain aspects of insecurity! like, i keep thinking that people dont like me. and its not based on really logical fact that i think so, its just the feeling. to a certain extent, i can tell that its just plainly my own oversensitivity and insecurity that's making me feel this way, but its hard to.. stop? haha. and i was going t be alone for 2 hours cause there was no one who had common break with me :'( then i decided to take a step of faith(if it can be called that) and just sit somewhere while talking and trusting that im never TRULY alone. then i think God blessed my attitude cause then shu qin came by!!! :O hooray! and she was just telling God that like, God send me a friend!!! then she saw me!!! :O :D :O :D hahahah.
and whatever it is, i must learn not to keep being so dependant on people. and depend on God instead! keke.
anyway I FOUND OUT SMTH DAMN COOL ABOUT MERLY!!!! omg the small light up panel is actually pressable/its a touch.. panel?! or however its called. haha. omg im super amazed and fascinated cause now i can mute Merly or like adjust the volume or excess outlook(not that i will) with just a simple tap! someone say awesometastic please! haha!!!
okay, very boring and wordy post, i know. haha. but well, twenty years down the road i'll look back and laugh at myself!
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STEF typed this at 9:59 PM
hi! im blogging from my new hp laptop which is merlot in colour and i like it rather alot.
i know that sentence sounds weird at the end. billy is going t help me think of a name for it. maybe i'll call it merlin! cause yknow, merlot makes me think of merlin. it'll probably be a more guy-ish name cause my mom informed me that a laptop is probably masculine in french.
in any case, i went through HELL lot just to be able to log in to my com, as hannah can testify.
whatever it is, THANK YOU GOD for that IT savvy guy who saved the day(and my lappy).
okay, i am, as shuqing would say, mega tired lah!
so good nighty everyone.
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STEF typed this at 9:27 PM
yello jello
i just made konnyaku jelly! :D
heehee. i feel so elated+accomplished. hope they turn out nice!
oh some are M18 though. cause i added vodka peach HAHA.
eh before you go eee/eew/eee eew gross, it may actually be nice okkkk!
okay so im praying that they'll set nicely in my fridge and then i can have a yummilicious time afterward :D
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STEF typed this at 1:56 PM
im using safari at the moment since my internet explorer is so damn slow!!! haha. anyway my blog template is really screwed on safari :///
ah well, i'll just pray that everyone uses IE then since im such a html noob.
anyway i just learnt a new song on the guitar! im quite happy. cause its quite easy to play as well. afterall, i am just a lousy amateur..! hahaha.
im suspecting(again) whether i've just been led around in a circle. if that is the case, i've got nobody to blame but myself. i guess its time to set up defences again, and this time, im not going t take them down.
by the way, my nails are an assortment of different colours after ten minutes in thefaceshop yesterday, with hannah, liting and michelle. haha! but i am liking it very much. oh i just realised that the colour on my right index finger's chipped/grinded off cause i played the guitar just now. i wonder if that means i strum wrongly or whut(!!!) :O
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STEF typed this at 1:25 PM
weehoo! i had a yummilicious and handsomelicious cake!
batman forever :D
it was the fourth day of scamp! so yinglin and i left our og for a few hours. haha it was supposed t be on the pretext of some unit meeting. then met up with our cg and they celebrated my birthday wit me :D
well, it was actually supposed t be a surprise, but err thanks to ben..!!! HAHAHAHA.
so anyway, no pictures from that celebration cause cameras were absent!!! :(
but anyway, i was really touched by the cg's celebration. they gave me an arsenal jersey(kids size haha!) with fabregas printed on the back!!!!! :D ben forgot t take out the price tag till the last moment when hannah reminded him HAHA.
and the card was really awesome! joyce is so cr8ive! i was super touched, seriously.
so anyway, i headed home after that and yay! my 2kg batman cake :D i like having huge cakes for my birthday so that the next few days' breakfasts will be.. cake! heh.
i was also quite touched that my cousins' family came down t cut cake wit me. haha and this is super funny. we took a timer shot and my aunt wasnt sure that she'd be in the picture so she was trying very hard t squeeze in, but in the end, there was SO MUCH SPACE. haha!
yay, lighting the candles!
tada!
i was so excited about the jersey, i wore it over my dress. haha i was wearing a dress cause after that i was supposed t join back my og at dxo yo. music there sucks by the way IN MY OPINION cause i dont like techno!!!!!! grr.
fabregas!!! :D
okay and everyone was laughing at my cake cutting skills :@ i dont know why, but i totally messed up my cake! the cake cream just all bunched up at the plastic knife and then it got super messy!
my mom cut the rest for me in the end.
so anyway, i also had a small and quirky early celebration at kap. haha but i cant find my handphone cable so no pics either :/ but yeah, it was nice.
thank you all who wished me :D me happy alot!!!
anyway, i had a aegis og meet up yest! haha. it was very fun and funny and i got super high during dinner. damn!!! i have no idea why. i was seriously having a killer headache which killed the fun for me a little but i still had tons of fun in any case. oh i realise i suddenly like t use "in any case" okay so weird. my pool skills and bowling skills were at an ALL TIME LOW. i swear i can do better!!!! please vouch for me all those whom i've played pool/bowling with before!!!! HAHA.
matric acts potential camp was also good. damn tiring though! i swear i have not recovered form the 5 days of scamp :O made some good friends from both camps so i am not complaining :D and i experienced many new things for the first time. like getting sunburnt on my freaking scalp!!!!
i am using ! like free! :///
i got rejected by sow damn! i'm seriously worried about the whole bidding thing. i hope yuan chun suceeds in helping me pull strings! and its seriously gender discrimination! yinglin and zheng yi signed up the same time as me (yesterday HAHA) and they both got in :@ i heard its because of too many females. BIDDING HOW I AM SUPER ULTRA CLUELESS HELP!
on a completely different note, i was searching for my birthday picture in my com and i came across many other photos. and i realise that i always feel.. sad when i look at photos taken of/with people that i am no longer close with :( i was feeling so !!! this particular day that i have no friends and that all my friends have left me. but in the end i concluded that trust in God beats everything else and i am just going t focus on my own being.
by the way, i feel like boxing people who say "i am like this one. no one can change me." its freaking WRONG and its selfish, especially if what you're doing hurts people.
the frog who swam and swam and eventually churned milk t butter. then escaped from the bucket. i honestly dont know if that's possible but i still want that spirit.
shout out to benbenbenbenbenbenbenbenbenben! hi ben! we have not forgotten you!!! hahaha we all miss you very much! hope you're registration went well yest :D
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STEF typed this at 11:22 AM
i am boreddddddd.
and im turning into an auntie. watching korean dramas and falling in love with lee jun ki (however you spell it). hahaha.
hannie is out swimming now. im so jealous! i wanna swim too. but im excited caus we're going t have sports cg again this week :D but damn, i gotta go and book the courts. exercise! im not huge/big in size, but still fat and soft and unhealthy..!
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STEF typed this at 1:18 PM
i was having lunch with my colleagues yest at some hawker centre.
and sharing the table with us was these 3 other ladies that we didnt know.
okay so right, they were gossiping and gossiping non stop! like damn bad, evaluating and categorising everyone that they knew, even their friends. oh and also complaining and complaining and complaining.
then in the distance, some contruction work started. and it was a little noisy.
and one of the ladies commented, "noise pollution ah"
and then it got me thinking!
what's the difference b/w the contruction and the 3 yakking ladies.
and i realised, that the contruction, though noisy, produces mordern marvels.
while the 3 ladies, though noisy, produce nothing.
so maybe that's the thing about gossip, pointless albeit self-satisfying.
okay, i dont wanna be a gossiper cause it hurts people and is pointless! so i really pray that i can achieve that........... afterall, i know how it feels to be gossiped about.
OH and anyway, i realised that i've been struggling really hard between trying to defend myself and being myself. defending myself totally failed cause i sitll got hurt and got hurt worse and everything got alittle more complicated than it arld is because of that. therefore i concluded that God, i wanna be myself, in You. what i had has arld been broken, so God, please help me to pick up the pieces and be strong, and be myself.
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STEF typed this at 11:14 AM
i think working is making me get fatter.
haha! im eating as must as ever but all i do for the most part of the day is sit in the chair in an air-conditioned room and type and type and type.
anyway, the 3 people that i hang with in the office are all moms. haha! i feel a little out of place sometimes. but ah wells.
so anyway, i noticed that all three of them contantly call up their kids to talk to them and check up on them. as is expected of loving moms with young kids right? but i noticed that sharon(she talks the loudest on the phone so i can hear whatever she's saying haha!) always never fails, each time when she talks to her kids, to ask them what they ate for lunch.
true, she could be asking them because she doesnt want them eating unhealthy stuff. haha but she knows all their eating habits! what sarah and samuel eat is like, always the same! haha.
so anyway, IN MY OPINION, i think that she asks them because she just really cares about all the small little details in their life. even if she arld knows the answer 99.9% of the time. i guess if you really love someone, you'd just wanna know every little itty gritty detail of their life. awww..
oh and i made an acquaintance on the bus today! HAHA omg it was damn funny. okay so i got on the bus, and sat down next t this lady. and then suddenly i realised she was staring at smth on the floor. so i followed her gaze and saw.. a pack of frozen sausages under the chair in front of us. HAHA omg apparently the guy infront of us dropped it. cause his hand reached down and picked it up. we both were just like WHAT THE and we caught each other's eye and snickered! hahaha. and when i alighted, we nodded to each other. haha okay, i just think that instances like this makes the world feel like a friendlier place t live in.
okay, bejewelled time!
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STEF typed this at 7:09 PM
look! im trying t put my words into actions. and not let my life waste away.
okay, today was pretty much hard also. but i have have have to make this work. moving on....
so i baked brownies for the pj girls! :D
i like my pretty sticky tape :D
all set to go!
hmm. and i gave tuition to brother peck's sister today. haha! looks like i gotta do some revising of my science as well. hahaha.
anyway, thanks hannie, for trying t be there for me. even though you're pretty much busy yourself. thanks (:
also thanks brother, for always trying t cheer me up. though you cant always understand what im saying! HAHA. but still, thanks (:
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STEF typed this at 9:05 PM
cool. im so gonna update about my awesome experience at the gunner's sg home base! :D
even though arsenal lost, but its okay! they are still awesome! esp fabregas. who is actually my fiance. HAHA!
actually i cant really think now. my medicine's kicking in. and i cannot think straight. damn drowsy. wanna crashhhhh. night bye.
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STEF typed this at 8:44 PM
zoomzoom! i am improving by
anyway, what the heck, cant believe braynard managed to guess my lj! haha esp so since he doesn't know me very well. hurr, my lj is not going as planned. it needs a makeover, pronto.
had cg today as well. had a real laugh with hannah! hahaha! walao, from talking about pretty girls, to laughing at how the bus bounced over the hump. okay that bus part was just her being damn weird. im glad this is our seventh year(and counting!!!) like we should write out our friendship is sigma form lah.
today is day 3. damnit. why do i rmb this.
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STEF typed this at 10:56 PM
i might be moving my blog! haha. then i can be more selective about my privacy.
a super old photo. christmas service last year!
ming came over and we attemptedmade tortillas!
the cook! and she brought her retarded cow hat.
which by the way, was on a winnie the pooh stuffed toy. but she didnt like winnie so she threw winnie away and kept his hat! what the heck. so mean right. haha.
we're done! okay the eggs look a little messy but damn nice ok!
timer shots. with props(specs and cow cap) courtesy of ming.
my lovely new wallet!!!!
i love it soooo much :D
okay fine, the brand's not really well known or good or what lah, but at least its genuine leather!
at yeoliqun's house.
i look really dumb, i know.
going t bloody eunos for caregroup :/
okay, we realise that we're kinda late, so cannot look too happy.
godiva! ben ho works there and we get t share some perks :q slurp!
dessert+drinks at.. i forgot the name. its at the old fire station near my house! omg smth damn silly happened and it made us want t dig a hole in the ground and hide our faces forever. HAHAHA.
chocolate mousse!
anyway i was supposed t go t the doctor's today. but but but, one clinic was closed and the other was super packed. argh. so pissing off. finally got my lazsy butt out of bed, only t have my see-doctor plans foiled :(
brother peck booked in today! hope all will be fine with him. haha.
thanks, jovan and jack, for cheering me up yesterday. really don't know what i'd do without you guys.
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STEF typed this at 10:39 AM
i was going t upload awfully cute photos of some hopekids!
but but but my phone just doesnt want t connect with the com. i suppose they're quarrelling and have yet t bury the hatchet! haha i am so lame.
hopekids today was fun!
but my throat was horrible. like, during praise and worship, i hit every single note except the right note :( oh but the swensons part was cool. the kids were soooo into aeiou they kept playing it the whole time!!! hahaha.
okay, im bored at homexzxzxzxz. i shall, go and do housework. haha just kidding :/
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STEF typed this at 5:13 PM
omg! i am officially a biker girl now :D (haha carol)
anyway, i know i am being sooo uncool being so excited about this, but whatever! i am still stefthebest!
yeah! so i got tong panged by my friend yesterday! and it was really fun! and i know im typing with alot of exclamation marks! but aiya, im home early on a sat night leh, so can you at least save your "what a retard" thoughts for a later date.. :(
SO it was really awesome! okay, maybe i was just a teeeeensy weeeny little scared at first but i had fun! haha.
anw, why does (almost)everyone assume that my biker friend would automatically be a guy?! eh its a she! haha how cool is that right.
anyway, it was my very first time at uni service today! i was just feeling a little awkward, t be honest. since im not very familiar with all the people there. but i thought the service was good and the wenjiang person who gave the sermon threw a different perspective on the crucifiction/crucifixion/crucificion(?!?!?) of Jesus. and there was also a song presentation about the theif that was crucified alongside Jesus. the lyrics were really meaningful and both hannah and i thought that the guy sang well haha!
yes, i am boring so its another wordy post!
im really tired and bored now actually. waiting for huiwei to reach home so we can discuss hopekids! and then i really want t just get some sleep. damn tired. my parents are more happening than me anw! they're over at my aunt's place watching some horror flick BRR. my sister's out too.
its just me and my irritating throat now. rasp!
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STEF typed this at 8:11 PM
oh no, i have 2 mozzie bites on my blueblack(or orhche). this is my worst nightmare. i want t rub my blueblack but i cant!! cause then i'll be feeding the itch and the bite will take longer t go away :( not t mention get more itchy.
oh and i decided t edit my layout just abit! so see, its easier t read, isnt it?
okay i decided t upload some photos! okay, im not sure if i've uploaded them before or what. heh.
the caregroup girls!
look! there's a freaky kaypo man in the background!! :@
see! the man is there again!!
outing with the ex crescent galxzxz.
oh no, the way i stand is disgusting.
random. haha! and matthais' face is behind!
ws' birthday.
yl as the jukebox!
ohoh! and this is the bbq that my family had at my cousins' place.
its was simple but delicious! haha. had it in the corridor at the back stair well. it was fun! and i ate as much salmon as i could.
omg everytime there's a bbq i will never forget the ABSOLUTELY delicious salmon+steak which was served at some rich kids house who uhh, was the friend of my friend's friend. hahaha. okay im making myself sound like a free loader :/
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STEF typed this at 8:50 AM
yesterday was my Mopey Day! haha. so after moping around the house, i feel much better today. i hope this.. thing of mine is not like the cyclical economy or what! i do not want t always have t go through this "Recession" periodically.
oh i do have one photo, that i took with michelle, this girl from my hopekids cg! but im kinda lazy t upload it. which reminds me that gabriel totally ditched me for sandy :( take photo with her but dont want t take with me. heartbreaker! it must be all because she wore the sheep shirt. HAHAHA.
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STEF typed this at 12:47 PM
i don't have the courage to hope for smth that's so nearly impossible. im arld struggling t come t terms with some horrid memory that bloody hell keeps replaying in my head :(
anyway, i bought my grandma chicken rice today! haha. its from the ultra famous and yummy chicken rice stall at the BUKIT TIMAH MARKET :D home of all the famous and delish foods! heh.
the stalls should so give me commission for all the promoting im doing!
they even have like, grounded ginger to go with the rice. (actually i thought it was garlic and hence i embarrassed myself when i asked for some to takeaway :/ i even had t call my mom and ask her what "jiang" is when i got home) oh and the amount of chicken they give is very generous! its great value for money :D oh and they're christians i think. and yeah lorh, the chicken they give is way more than in school please. hahaha and also the queue can get ultra long so if its during lunch/dinner time, you really gotta wait long long!
okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk my sister went t poly camp today. and uhhhhhhhhh okay, that's pretty much all. alright im going t run away from reality and enter the world of my book.
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STEF typed this at 10:10 AM